becoming a more serious writer
for some reason writing has always been an afterthought. not something i thought i can actually do for a living. although people told me i can, i have a gift for words. i still think they were just being nice.
there isn't much i can do. my brain works in weird ways. the most comfortable i am is when i am in front of the screen. typing out words. no people to talk to. just me and my fucked up thoughts on paper. for some reason people want to read it.
i want to go back to my roots now. to write more. express myself more. to think better.
i think human writing is going to make a come back. which is good news for flawed writers like myself. people are tired of ai slop writing.
have i used ai to write? hell yeah. work emails and work docs sure. but writing like this one? requires soul. its very tempting to use ai to write. to see those words automatically appear on a piece of paper. but what is the point?
you need to stare at the blank screen. channel the divinity and pull words out of thin air. bleed on the paper. that is difficult to many. but to me its survival. if i don't write - i have nothing. i am nothing. it is all i can do.